Hi everyone,
I would like to talk about an incident that happened on the dedicated Facebook group made for us by John.
if you are aware of this, skip down to the next paragraph. I really enjoy this group and the group on Facebook. I enjoy banter and jokes a lot. I am a big believer that happiness is done through laughter. Also that we need a lot of happiness in these times due to everything that is going on. I poke fun at the admin and people but always in my heart I hold the utmost respect to everyone. I do get carried away sometimes but I am quick to apologizes. I suffer from ADHD and this is not an excuse but the word “excessive” goes hand in hand with my name sometimes. On the group a young man requested help on a certain subject matter and I first poked fun at the admin as I always do (to laugh with not laugh at). I was ignored. Which is totally fine. Then I commented to help the person by sharing a website and some info. Honestly didn’t put a lot of focus and my feedback was all over the place. Again was ignored, which is still fine you know. After a few days, just for laughs and when the post gone quiet, I commented that I was ignored the other day as a joke. It wasn’t well taken by the original poster. It got to me, his comment, it was an insult. So I said something back to him in the form of an insult. And then he insulted me back. Then I told him that his name sounds like a person that accept donations at a sperm bank. After that comment I was stunned by a racist rant telling me to blow myself up to meet 70 virgins, paraphrasing here. Everyone can tell from my name that it’s a Muslim name. He thought that it’s fine to be racist just because I slandered his name. I told him what I thought of his racist comment and I reported that comment to the admin and Facebook. Suddenly I found myself out of the group and the admin is unreachable.
This is an apology to John, I am sorry for going as far as I did. I shouldn’t of said what I said in the beginning and become apart of such a conversation on the Facebook group. My ADHD got the best of me and it’s not an excuse, but I am responsible like any man is. I tried to reach John several times to apologized even through people he knows in the UK but to no avail.
On another note, please note friends that I have been subject to racist slurs before online because of my name. It’s horrible and disgusting. When we put our masks and uniforms on to play Airsoft, we are airsofters. Not black or white, Muslim or Christian or what ever the beliefs you might have or don’t.
thank you for the read. Cheers to everyone! Stay safe.
Forgot to say something important. To the young man that shared racist remarks towards me. I believe the solution to this problem is an open discussion. We shouldn’t on insulted each other and you shouldn’t of said those racist remarks. I’m open to a discussion with you for a resolve. Civil discourse is better than hate speech or racist remarks.