Wise words indeed
Your over analysing it, why worry about something that may never happen, alternatively if it did happen your worrying won't have changed anything?
As for the kit, it's meant to be used, & will look just as good on the wall even if it's stopped working, so again no excuse to not get out with it.
look at sites with a good reputation for ensuring fair play, doesn't matter that site "A" has more features than a Swiss Army knife, if it's badly managed & full of teflon warriors then a bad day is almost guaranteed, so choose carefully, even if it's just bog standard woodland running some simple old skool capture the flag type games etc.
Which site is that ?
last few years ive experienced similar feelings, but after 20+ years of ptsd & its associated effects, as well as other physical health problems, Airsoft has always been my "medicine" to let off steam so to speak, my real fear now isn't not wanting to play, but having the choice taken away from me, literally today put on a waiting list for a new knee, In addition to last years minimally invasive cancer diagnosis becoming a more pressing issue requiring drastic intervention this year, wtf, more than ever I need to pew pew.