You do not have to hear voices or see things that are not there to be schizophrenic.
I accept that you are unwell and believe that you are delusional. I regularly deal with people who have mental illnesses and you are showing clear signs of something that is way beyond ADHD. You really do need some professional help.
However, I have one, possibly last, question for you; if you are not racist, why do you list The Turner Diaries and Hunter as two of your three favourite books on blogger.com? These openly racist books were written by William Luther Pierce, founder and chairman of the National Alliance, an openly racist and anti-semitic white supremacist Neo-Nazi organisation. This does tend to suggest that your choice of an SS parade uniform was not made solely on the basis that it looks good.