Hi Qlimax
I kind of pop on & off forums because too much involvement in any hobby can be oversaturation.
Last summer I had a few bad games & then some bad luck that really hit me hard financially and it almost ended my airsoft hobby, I then went to a skirmish & it was an attrocious day (poor turn out, poor games, some of the regulars were being a bit arsey with each other & there was a really bad atmsphere) I just pretty much decided to quit. I really didnt see the point of it all.
I have other hobbies that I love so have now gone back into them with more enthusiasm than before. but yet again I feel like going back to airsoft, so made a deal with myself, I will get on with my other persuits (Playing bass guitar & mountain biking) during the spring/summer months & go back to Airsoft in Autumn & Winter. for some reason because I will have a natural break between all the differant hobbies I have it feels as though skirmishing will feel new again when I go back to it.
Because I have been away from it all for almost a year now I'm actually excited to go again......I'm riding my bike almost every weekend & playing Bass most nights, I now feel like I have found a balance in my life that wasnt there before.
To me being creative is a part of me, feeling freedom & solitude is another.....then adrenline of being in a intense firefight is also a part of me. I found balance & it worked for me.....Maybe it may work for you, i'm not sure but thought I'd share my weird mind drivel with you in hopes that it could help.
I hope this makes sense lol
When My son was little I did find it hard to be away from him & if I did do anything away from home, I kind of felt guilty about leaving him & I was never that into what I was doing because of that. Now he's older I do most things with him so I kill two birds.
All I can say mate, have a break, ask yourself what makes you happy & do that. Life is too short to worry about playing soldiers with others. life is about enjoying whatever your doing, not trying to enjoy it. I know If I wasnt getting a buzz from it, I'd chuck in the towel tomorrow with no regrets & move on with my life.
Hope you get sorted mate.
All the best & good luck with your decision
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